Today I went to the SoCal Startup Day and saw a lot of desperate entrepreneurs. I could see it in their faces. They go for the pitch, it’s high energy and upbeat. But then they come downstairs, and their expressions change from smiles to desperation. It’s a horrible sight. I question why you have to sacrifice your family, health, and happiness if you want to have a business. Why is that mindset so prevalent?
I don’t know exactly why I went to the conference. It’s kind of the opposite of what I want—I want to find some life in the work-life balance situation. I’m already working 40 hours a week at my job and then using the rest of the time to work on my own games. Don’t get me wrong, I love making games, but sometimes I want to go for a hike, eat good pho at a restaurant, or sit in a beach chair and watch the waves of the Pacific Ocean. I thought maybe I could find someone who could fund me, so I could quit my studio job and fully focus on working on my games. Take three years, finish the game, put it on sale. Another three years, finish the game, rinse and repeat. And instead of working 85 hours a week, maybe work 60. That would be nice.
But no, if you’re an entrepreneur, you have to sacrifice everything. Shrug.
I don’t know what to do with my life.