Vacation is not helping. On Monday, I tried to fix my electric piano but didn’t take into account how heavy it is. I thought “weighted keys” was just a figure of speech, but they are actually weighted. Yesterday, I had muscle pain, probably because of this, and I had a nightmare, waking up at 4:30 a.m. My mood is at rock bottom, and my mind is spiraling, trying to find a way out. I don’t think I’ll be happy in any AAA studio—too much corporate bullshit. The only way out is to make my game successful, but I need a lot of energy, time, and knowledge. I don’t feel like I can create an appealing and successful game. Vacation isn’t helping—it’s even making things worse.